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Monthly Archives: Apr 2013

When professional get it right!!

26 Fri Apr 2013

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Well following on from my last posting, i thought it only fair to write about the value of professionals who ‘get it right’!

Yesterday i spent the day in bed with a flu and decided today that i would go to the doctor, a decision i was putting on the long finger due to the costs for non-medicard holders.

The doctor was a young chap from London (God certainly has a sense of humour sending me to both a professional and an english-man in the one go!!) was very nice! He exmamind my throat, prescribed me some antibiotics and seemed very interested in my life! I told him that i had spent the last 5 years doing mission work, that God had come into my life 5 years ago when i was suffering from severe depression and had brought a healing where science fell short. He wasn’t in the least offeneded by this, in fact he said ‘that’s great’ with a smile!

Also, as i lay on my bed yesterday and in one of those moments in-between sleeps, I re-read an article out of a magazine called “InPsych” from the Australian Psychological Society in relation to the treatment of psyhotic illness. When i first saw this magazine i froze, but something in me gently ecouraged me to read it! I was rather encouraged by the result! Taking aside the origin of psyhotic symptoms (whether illenss or demonic) the article provide quite a bit of pratical advice for people with such afflictions such as learning to identify between the self and the other voices etc. It even went on to illustrate that hearing voices in not always an illness, and made reference to a society of “hearing voices” and that in some cultures hearing from the dead is considered normal. It was only considered to be illness when these voices were disturbing and distressing the person. Now while i can’t say that I agree with everything, at the same time i found it most encourarging and it made me reflect on the power of healing that may also happen through professionals who have a holistic view of the human person, when spirituality is integrated into the psychological understanding.

While my own past experince has been tainted with quite a few negative experiences, I feel the Lord telling me not to judge all professional based on this, that there are many excellent people out there in all occupations doing some fantastic work for the Lord!

Coming from a western culture of understanding and knowledge i think that this is a challenge for us all. I know with my own education in mathematics that i have tried many times (and perhaps i still am a little) to squeeze God into a mathematical formula! To ‘nail’ the spiritual laws and to become some sort of “human-computer programmer”!!! It was only during the week, when a friend was going through a difficult time and simply wanted to be listened to, that I jumped in almost straight away with my two big feet with the solution, which went down like a lead balloon because it was not the right timing!

Perhaps my next blog should be ‘when Michael get’s it wrong”!! All any of us can do is our best, realizing that mistakes will happen, people will get hurt, there will be misunderstanding, conflicts etc. but that if we wait until we’re perfect to serve the Lord, then we’ll never do anything for him!

Father God, forgive me for the times that i have expected too much from professionals, for the times that i expected them to have all the answers, after which i could only be disappointed! Bless them in their work, make them docile to your Spirit, open them to always learning more, to listening with their ears and hearts. Forgive me for the times that i have been unprofessional, give me the grace to see when I am hurting others in the name of helping them! Give me your heart of mercy and forgiveness for those who hurt me, forgive them, forgive us, we know not what we do.

When secular professionals get it wrong!

23 Tue Apr 2013

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Today I was awarded a certificate after Chuch and it made me think of what holding a certificate actually means, especially in today’s world!

I often hear words such as “professional”, “certified”, “registered”, “regulated”……and say to myself so what?! Do these qualifications mean that the holders know it all? That their services are fool proof? And who gives out these certificates? Is it God as some would have you believe?! And if not, how are so many so sure of their teaching!

Let me illustrate with some of my own life experience…

In 2008 when i was stronglly thinking of commiting suicide I went to a “professional, registered, licensed….’ psychotherapist who had a string of letters like the alphabet after her name! At the time I had been out of work on sickleave, couldn’t eat or function and was questioning my identity, especially in the area of sexuality. While I had a girlfriend whom i loved a lot, I also had other unwanted feelings towards men which i could not understand.

So I went on to share all this to this lady, expecting and trusting that she could help me! She spoke to me of her qualifications, of having 7 years studies in London and of her succesful business. She told me that I could be healed, that she too had suffered similar in life, and that i had to trust her whole-heartedly. Naively i agreed!

After an initial session of hypnosis, she told me to go to work the following Monday and to ask for a job promotion! So there i was, out of work on sick leave for months, in a job where i was highly overpaid and inexperienced, and i was to ask for a promotion! In relation to my identity crises, she told me that i’d never know unless I tried and so she encouraged me to act out homosexually.

As I was on the brink of suicide, I was in a very vulnerable position and desperate not to die I did, it only put me further into depression and I realized that this therapist was off her head! I told her as much and she immediately sacked me as a client, refusing to refer me to anybody else leaving me for dead in a suicidal state….

After this i went to a doctor, whom i pleaded to write me a letter which would allow me to be hospitalized. I no longer trusted myself not to do something stupid. The doctor did not want to write such a letter as i had made no attempts to commit suicide…..after asking him “if i go outside and cut my wrists and come back in, would that help?” he reluctantly wrote the letter….but my health insurance had expired so the hospital would’t take me!!!

Next up on the ‘professionals’ list was a pyschiatrist, who looked at me for 5 minutes, presecribed some medication which would have no effect for 6 weeks and organised for me to see a psychologist 3 months later!! Were they all blind? I was only hanging on to life by a whisker!

After this was another psychotherapist who did help me quite a bit, until i told her that i was a christian! She told me that christianity came from satanism where they drink blood in chalices! She then told me to go and buy cryals and go to see her friend Eddie who was a psychic!!

The point that i’m making is that all these people were “registered, certified….” and had a string of letters after their names and yet each and every one of them came a step closer to killing me!

So then i met Jesus, the professionals couldn’t bear it, names like pschotic etc. were thrown around arrogantly. Jesus put people on my path that helped me, ironically people with no qualifications, with no certificates…but with big hearts, full of love, full of the Holy Spirit. To some my healing today is a scandal, they can’t bring themselves to admitting the existence of God….that despite their qualifications, they might not know it all!

Today my message to you all is very simple! Don’t get fooled by professionals, don’t get blinded by science! Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever and he can heal us when the science of the world fails!

I am also aware that there are also christain professionals out there, and for you I pray and encourge to stand up for Jesus and for the faith in the midst of all the nonsene and lies of the world.

Bless you all

Michael

‘My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me’

20 Sat Apr 2013

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This morning I was at a prayer meditation group, and the text up for discussion was chapter 10 of St John’s gospel! No sooner did i take a look at it than my stomach almost turned!

As I read through it i stopped on ‘My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me’.

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You see, when in India I stayed with a french community (of St John) for 4 months. I must have heard the gospel of John hundreds of times! I also recall sharing my life with some of the brothers, who were deeply disturbed by the idea of Jesus speaking to me….I remember one young novice arguing that God doesn’t do that sort of thing under the new covenant (which is bad news for Saint Paul).

The same community were not that comfortable with the charisms of the Holy Spirit, words of knowledge, visions etc. While there were many good things in their community such as silent prayer, when it came to more direct experiences of the Holy Spirit, they were uncomfortable. Often I wondered is what they call the ‘dark’ night of the soul, caused more by people refusing the consolations that God wants to give through the Holy Spirit rather than anything else. I am not saying that I am a Saint, but even through the most horrible trials, I have always “felt” God’s presence…..

Simultaneously I was attending a charasmatic centre where everybody was having Holy Spirit type experiences! It was very hard at times to understand how in the same Church, attitudes and discernment can be so different!

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It came to the point that i could no longer bear to hear them preaching, it was so intellectual and so little spiritual that it was an effort to stay awake! It fed heads and not hearts, and my heart was left famished! After 4 months the Lord pulled me out of there

“A stranger they will not follow, but they will flee from him, for they do not know the voice of strangers.”

I had largely forgotten about this experience until this morning! It made me realise that I still had unforgiveness in my heart towards these people. I repented, and I feel that there is indeed more to go!

Lord Jesus, only you know the challenges that people experience in today’s world as they follow your spirit. I firmly believe that the most important thing for us all is to learn about the Holy Spirit and how to follow him! Lord open our ears and educate your ways!!

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The journey of Healing continues!

17 Wed Apr 2013

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Last Monday i went to a prayer group, largely attended by young people. Upon arriving i didn’t feel at ease, i felt that i hadn’t much in common with these people, that i was too old to be there and that i had nothing to say to any of them! All day i had debated with myself whether to go or not, and yet very clearly in prayer i felt the Lord telling me to go, to face my fears etc.

So I participated as best i could, smiling when appropriate despite the inner turmoil! At this stage i think i deserve an oscar award for looking fine when i’ve been in agony on the inside! During the prayer meeting one of the pastors prayed for me, I didn’t feel any different, but then again, i should know that prayer isn’t about feelings!

As i came back in the train i picked up that MX (i think that’s what it’s called) newspaper and began reading about all sorts of stuff….i asked myself why i was reading such rubbish, which isn’t exactly uplifting to the soul! Once i had finished it, i had no choice but to confront this bad mood that i was in…what came up surprised me! An anger surged up from within, how could God expect me to be nice to these young people, full of ambition, careers etc. when all of the dreams that i had at that age were totally destroyed. You see, when i was their age i also had the same ambitions, marriage, kids, career….until illness destroyed it all. Part of my felt that they should have to suffer the same thing, it was like their joy and hope brought me in contact with deeper levels of pain, pain of losing it all! How could they possibly understand me, what i have been through, how could they be so insensitive…?

And so I began to cry, to pour my heart out to God, Why me? Why did I get sick? Why did my mother get sick? Why did God not put christians on my path earlier? Why did i lose my girlfriend? Why did i lose my career? Why, why, why?

You see for years I have been able to spend time around sick people, depressed people, people on the verge of suicide and yet it has been so difficult for me to spend time with young people, people that are happy! Most people would find the opposite!! It’s as though joy and happiness have been alien concepts to my relatively young life and that the only people that I have been able to relate to have been the dying!

As I cried yesterday, I felt God lifting off weights, I felt him giving me a new hope, a belief that with him my life will not go wrong again, that i can relax, that i do not always need to be on my guard. I also felt him giving my the grace to be able to be happy for others instead of anger and jealousy building up for these people who “got it easy”, who without knowing it were “rubbing my face in it”!!

I now pray for these young people, i pray that they will put Jesus first in all their decision, but i also realize that i can not stop them from making mistakes, in fact the best school in life is the school of mistakes! I also realize that God has a lot to teach me through them, especially how to laugh, have fun and how to appreciate a lighter side of life!

PS: Please keep me in your prayers!

Throw it away!!

15 Mon Apr 2013

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For those of you who are very rational-minded, bear with me! Once upon at time I was too…in fact I was so rational minded after years of studying statistics and probability that at age 25 I was already worried about not having enough money for my retirement!! Michael you big fool, what about your eternal retirement?!

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This article is supposed to be a bit fun! It’s about throwing perfectly good things away! When I left Ireland to go to France all those years ago, I brought everything I had with me…clothes, laptop etc. and I’m going to tell you about how the Lord told me to give it away!

Firstly let’s start with the laptop and let’s just say that before giving my life to Jesus, I wasn’t exactly using it to listen to or view daily devotions! You know what i mean!! And so while on one hand, it was still in perfect working order, the Lord led me to understanding that spiritually it was contaminated! One day while i was in Saint Tropez (south of France), the Holy Spirit convicted me so strongly of getting rid of it, that I walked outside and put it into the nearest bin!! The week afterwards i bought a new one, despite rapidly running out of money.

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So why? Well I can’t say that i fully understand, but the Lord has repeated this type of thing in my life hundreds of times and it has brought immense spiritual restoration and freedom! Clothes, books, photos, e-mails, texts, contacts etc. My understanding is that there can be spiritual links to material items, and by still having the items in our possession, it is an open door to the corresponding spiritual link, blocking the Holy Spirit.

Some would argue that to do this is sinful! To throw away something “perfectly good”!! But it begs the question, “what is good”, and if something has negative spiritual attachments, then is it really good?! There are also many examples in the Bible where God instructed his people to destroy cities, leaving nothing, and even one example where God was very angry when they destroyed everything except the “good stuff”!!

Agghhhh!!!!!

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So, say a prayer to the Holy Spirit, offer Him your entire life, all your possession and ask Him what items He doesn’t like! Often it is the thing that you are most “attached” to and be wreckless!

Always remember that Jesus loves us and that if he tells us to get rid of something, it is because he wants to bring us to a new level of freedom and joy in the spirit and that he will look after all our material needs. I can personally testify to this, despite having nothing, I have gone without nothing!!
PWlaughshep

What happens after death?!

15 Mon Apr 2013

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With a title like that, it can only get better! Have you ever wondered what happens after death, if God really exists, if there is a heaven or a hell…well here is what i have come to learn over the years, not from books but from an all too close encounter with death!

As I sat on a beech in Ireland back in 2008 and contemplated suicide by drowning, I began to ask myself the question – is there an afterlife?! This was not a question to amuse my intelligence, but rather a very practical question considering the voyage that i was thinking of taking!!

On one hand I had grown up in a catholic family, with catholic morals and my mother, who was always a prayerful woman certainly believed in these things. I had heard examples of saints through the ages who had described heaven and hell and I had also heard about missionaries with healing gifts of the Holy Spirit, all leading me to believe in the spirit world..

On the other hand, some of my extended family were not so godfearing and often laughed at my mother for her beliefs! Furthermore, I had never heard anybody talk about God or spirituality to any extent in school, university or in the workplace, despite me working in the area ….wait for it….life assurance!!! While I had studied for years to become an actuary, one of the most reputable financial qualifications, and had studied the area of “life assurance” for years, there was never any mention of life!! I couldn’t help but ask myself why people so desperately wanted to assure their lives, considering that so many never stopped complaining about living?!!

So you can imagine my confusion as i sat on that beech that day, a confusion which was not helped by the fact that my mother, whom i loved a lot was also suicidal and had been brought to the ends of psychiatry with no improvement. So why if God exists had he allowed that…and what about me?!

I recall as I sat on that beech that i had a type of intuition, in my mind’s eye i could see black like birds and an inner voice was telling me that if committed suicide, that these entities would become my new housemates! I know now that it was the Holy Spirit warning me! I thought of my mother, of all that she had been through and yet that she had chosen to live and I decided that I owed it to her to continue, however I certainly was not going to entrust my getting better to mental health!

I prayed and God answered my prayer, you can read about that in my testimony if you desire. Over the course of the next few years the Holy Spirit revealed to me what exactly he saved me from! He showed me hell on many occasions, He showed me the afflictions of the damned and on many occasions He allowed me to see evil spirits etc.

He allowed me to realise that these spirits had always been in my life, but that while i was living a life of sin, pleasing to them, that they made no noise! It was only when I turned to Jesus that they manifested, and boy did they manifest!

But Jesus did not stop there, He went on to show me heaven, the music, the joy, the peace and harmony. On several occasions I have had angelic visitations including apparitions which mere words could never describe.

Afterwards the Lord explained to me the ‘mop-up’ operation that needed to be done, we can’t live in sin for 25 years and expect suddenly to be snow white! He showed me how past sins had created spiritual links and that each needed to be confessed and healed for the Holy Spirit to become fully active in my life.

However, what surprised me the most was that so few people in todays society or even in the Church spoke of these things. Jesus of course came to save us, but save us from what?! From what I have seen over the years, the majority of people see no need at all for being saved! Little do they know, that they are the ones at the greatest risk!!

The more we understand what Jesus has done for us, the more our prayer and our worship will become real, will become deep! The more also we will see prayer as the most important thing in life

“search first the kingdom of heaven…’

we find the kingdom in prayer..

If you are reading this and are already a spirit-filled christian then may God bless you and fill you with even more joy! May he also give you the boldness to speak out in today’s Church and break the spirits of silence and fear. If you are reading this and thinking that i’m out of my mind, then you are right! Spirituality is of the spirit and not the mind! However, I would encourage you to take it seriously for you also have a spiritual soul and Jesus in his infinite love and mercy wants to heal you and teach you, but he needs your free will to do so…

Consider praying this prayer

“Jesus, if you are real then please come into my life, show me the way that leads to heaven and happiness and let not me be blinded by the passing pleasures of this world’

May God bless you all

Michael

for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son

PS: I forgot to mention, that my mother who was beyond help was also healed over the last few years! Thank you Jesus!

Deux anges francais!

12 Fri Apr 2013

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Enfin, j’ai quelquechose de sypmatique à raconter conernant la France…et non, c’est pas la nourriture meme si je dois avouer que la nourriture francaise est vraiment top! C’est un exemple exceptionnel de la charité chrétienne, toute cachée, que je porte à la lumière!

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Il y a 4 ans pendant que je logais dans un monastère dans la Drome j’ai appris qu’il fallait me faire opérer pour un problème aux intestins! La date était fixée pour l’operation à Lyon (Croix Rousse). Dimanche soir je faisais mes valises pour aller à l’hopital le lendemain. Comme je ne connaissais personne a Lyon, j’etais un peu nerveux mais j’étais quand-meme bien entouré des amis célestes. Les moines avait demander à un couple qui rentrait à Lyon le meme soir de me poser à l’hopital et lorsque je les attendais dans le foyer un monsieur est venu me parler!!

– qui etes vous?
– vous venez d’où

j’avais à peine l’occassion de respirer entre ses questions!

– vous allez où ce soir avec cette valise?

O la la, il était pire qu’un policier!

– je viendrai te rendre viste demain à l’hopital

et il est parti!!

Lundi soir, après m’etre réveillé de l’opération, il était la! Il me faisait des petits calins et me faisait des bises sur la main. Comme j’étais très faible après l’opération je n’avais pas la force de le claquer. Qu’est-ce qu’il voulait, c’était un pervers? J’en savais rien, mais il avait l’air sympatique et je l’avais rencontré dans un monastère, meme si de nos jours ca ne veut rien dire!

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A l’intérieur Dieu me donnait une paix et j’ai décidé de lui faire confiance malgré son attitude originale! Il m’a éxpliqué qu’il avait organisé que je reste chez une amie de lui en sortant de l’hopital. Je ne voulais pas accepter cette proposition mais tout était orgnanisé et il m’a fait un peu le changtage en m’expliquant comme ca ne serait pas juste pour les moines si j’avais des soucis médicaux en après etre rentré au monastère.

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Alors une femme est venue, Myriem. J’étais triste de la gener comme mais bon, c’était trop tard! Elle était super-sympatique, elle était très contente de m’accueiller (un étranger) à sa maison. C’était le commencement d’une excellente amitiée! Je suis resté chez elle pendant à peu près une semaine, ce qui était bien pratique quand j’ai eu une hémorragie quelques jours après (peut-etre Robert avait raison apres tout)! Elle m’a montrée une hospitalité, une génerosité, une écoute et une amitié inoubliable.

J’ai du me faire opérer 3 fois (miracle pour la dernière, qui était pas nécessaire….’le jeune homme qui s’est fait endormi pour rien’…Jésus a pris un raccourci!) et chaque fois je restais chez Myriem pendant que Robert venait rendre visite!

Mais cela était juste la plus petite partie de leur génerosité, on m’a invité plusieurs fois à la maison, à leur groupe de prière, on m’a couvert de cadeaux…tellement j’avais de vetements j’aurais pu ouvrir un magasin! On m’a écouter, on m’accepté, meme après leur avoir raconté mon témoignage, quelquechose qui a fait fuire pas mal de gens!!!

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Je suis toujours en contact avec Myriem et Robert! Ils sont comme des membres de ma famille élargie! Je remercie Jésus pour eux et j’ai hate de les revoir un jour soit en France soit à l’autre bout du monde!

Myriem, Robert, si vous lisez cet article, je vous aime beaucoup! Vous etes vraiment des témoins vivants de l’évangile!

They have eyes but they do not see!

09 Tue Apr 2013

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This week I have been reflecting on the Gospel where Jesus appeared to Mary Magdelaine, whom he then sent to tell the apostles…who then did not believe her! Would it be any different today if Jesus were to appear to you or me?!! Who would believe you?!

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When Jesus entered my life in quite dramatic form 5 years ago, I was severely demonized. While my spiritual eyes had been opened, they were opened to good and to bad…on the positive side I could see Jesus, Mary, the angels and saints while on the negative I could see Satan, demons and the damned. When it came to “opening doors” to this type of thing I would have got 7/7! Ungodly sexual relationships – check, Anger hatred and unforgiveness….check, check, check, occult invovlement – check, new age involvement – check!!

So let me assure you that I arrived in France very much at the beginning of my healing journey, very much aware of my brokeness and need for spiritual healing and so the Church!

On one particular evening I had an exceptionally strong demonic attack, I will not go into detail but it was petrifying at the time. My uncle who has a good understanding of these type of things told me to go to the local priest and to get him to pray over me! I went to my local Church, explained to the priest and immediately realised that he didn’t believe me! That same day I entered the Church in agony, but I came out worse. I was shocked by the spiritual blindness, insensitivity and disbelief that i experienced. Bent over in agony, I pleaded with the Lord to help me, that same day shortly after 4 O’Clock the Blessed Mother appeared to me and delivered me from that round of attack. Some 6 months later I met the same priest again, the look on his face said it all! Shock – I wasn’t supposed to be alive!!

And so I quickly learned that not only did I have a spiritual illness, but that there were exceptionally few priests or lay-people trained to understand these type of things. Time and time again the same type of phenomenon continued and it got to the point that although living with 3 priests and attending the seminary full time that I could share it with nobody (except one priest). While I could read books and books to confirm and explain what was happening, on a practical level there was little to know help!

As the years went by i met more and more people demonized, often I could just see the demons on them, but the Holy Spirit also thought me how to see certain signs, especially in the eyes, dialation of the pupils, staring etc. The same people had often been labelled with different types of mental illnesses. They were neatly put in boxes and if I suggested that there may be at least some demonic activity, then I was put in another box!!

A mentality seems to have crept into a lot of places in the Church today that demons etc. are very rare and so there is no point in training future priests about them. However, when we look at the life of Jesus we see that a large amount of his time was spent delivering people from demons. Indeed from what the Lord has taught me over the years, it is obvious that nobody is spared demonic attack at some level or another. And yet, while everybody is taught how to eat well in order to maintain good physical health, so few are being taught how to maintain good spiritual health. While clearly it would be erroneous to spend too much time worrying about demons, it is equally erroneous to ignore them. If a medical doctor was to ignore some illnesses because he didn’t want to frightend his patients, he could well be sued for incompetence.

Fortunatley since i have come to Sydney, I am surrounded by more and more people competent in this area, a few in the Catholic Church but the majority in other christian denominations. It is trully amazing to see the power of Jesus to set people free and my heart goes out to the afflicted. I am not for one minute suggesting that priests are deliberately hurting these people, in fact in my own experience, many priests tried to help me in their own way, but help without wisdom isn’t really help and the Gospel without the power of the Holy Spirit is mere story telling!

I really feel that we need to pray more for our Church leaders, priests, pastors, bishops, cardinals, popes etc. Jesus walked the earth casting out demons and healing the sick, not in meetings thinking about thinking!! Let us pray that the spiritual eyes of our Church leaders will be opened, that mighty men and women of God will be raised up, who walk in the power and the annointing of the Holy Spirit, given to us through the death of our Lord.

Inga Vanga Sophia

08 Mon Apr 2013

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Let me share with you today the amazing story of Sophia

 

 

sopUpon arriving in India in 2012, one of the jobs that I was given was to help out with the children in one of mother Theresa’s orphanages. Upon arriving I was assigned Sophia! Her story is as follows: Sophia was born with a mental and physical handicap, one day she was found at the side of the road with her mother. Her mother had died and Sophia was in much distress. With an elderly Dad who was not able to look after her she was brought to the orphanage. The sisters told me that upon arriving that she was very sad, that she never smiled and showed little signs of life!

When I met Sophia she was quite the opposite! She was always smiling and her big brown eyes couldn’t but draw me to her. Sophia was not able to walk and my misssion was to teach her! Her legs were very weak and half an hour 2 days per week was not a lot! On top of this was the language barrier, while Sophia was not able to talk, i believe that she was able to understand tamil, a language which i do not speak except for a few words, one being “inga vanga” meaning “come here”.

Before continuing I will share how much that Jesus taught me through Sophia, despite obvious set-backs in life she was constantly in good humour, she was always smiling and seemed so content. Some days as I was throwing a bit of a “self-pity party”, poor me being so far away from my own culture…..I looked upon Sophia and I said to myself, if the Lord gives her the strength to smile then he’ll give me the same strength!!

One day as I was helping Sophia to walk, I placed my hand over her head, suddenly I felt heat coming out of my hand and God telling me to let go! I obeyed and then he told me to step back, about ten steps…to my amazement she was standing on her own! The next words were “inga vanga” and Sophia walked over to me! From that day on she could walk, albeit not perfectly as her feet were still quie badly deformed! I often remember the joy that this gave her and how much we take for granted in our own lives

 

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Although the Lord performed this miralce through me, I believe that he performed many more through her! While physical healing we can see, emotional and spiritual healing remains largely invisible! The days I spent with Sophia, I spent with Jesus, through her I learnt so much about life, about priorities, about what is really important….

I do hope some day to go back to India and to visit this same orphanage, I encourage you to pray for the sisters and also to reflect on the possibiity of doing mission work. So many of children like Sophia will never walk, not because it is impossible, but because they have not enough people to help them to gain sufficient strengh in their legs. So if you have got 2 hand and 2 feet, then you are qualified to help! They don’t ask for you credentials!

Thank you Jesus for Sophia, for her life, for her joy and for the hope that she gives to the world.

Provision

03 Wed Apr 2013

Posted by michael4jesus in Mini testimonies

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Today I’ve decided to write about God’s provion for our needs and how God has provided in my life! Unfortunately in many places and Churches all over the world this concept has been lost and rationalism has set in. Let me share some reflections!

So about 5 years ago I met Jesus, before that I earned quite a large salary for my age! I had a car loan of 30,000 Euro, rent on an apartment of 1200 per month not to mention all the other expenses. In the midst of all this I was suffering very badly from depression and anxiety etc (you know all that bit at this stage).

So Jesus appears to me in a vision and within three weeks instructed me to resign my job, leave the country and go to an unknown town in France…calling me 1) to trusting in him to sort out all my debts and 2) trusting in him for all my daily expenses!

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Naively when I arrived in France I shared my calling with people and priests alike! Little did i know that they would think that i was off the planet, somehow they had been reading the same gospel but not the same spirit! While everybody advised me (told me) that I should work to pay off my debts and to sustain my life, Jesus told me that I was already working, his work, invisible work and so called me to trusting in him. This caused much confusion but let me share some instances where the Lord has come through!

1. The bank threatened me with letters to bring me to court regarding the car! While I told them of my previous illness and recovery journey, they were heartless! So eventually the Lord told me to call their bluff!! They reposessed the car sold it for an enormous loss and I’ve never heard from them since…thank you Jesus!!

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2. After much prayer, a credit card debt to the tune of about 4000 got wiped out by a different bank!

Now bearing in mind that I spent about 8 hours a day praying and interceding, I was far from idle!

After 6 months in France I was out of money…a friend kindly gave me a coupon that she had for a restaurant, she had set it aside for a homeless person but felt that i was a more worthy cause! Another friend gave me 200euro, the same girl had almost nothing herself…what did the rich give me? Nothing, that’s why they are rich!

And so I came to the point of having nothing, I sat alone in a Church in Paris after mass, feeling the presence of Jesus and telling him that I couldn’t take anymore pain. All of a sudden a young man named Anthony came along and introduced himself, I told him enough about my life to make him interested and tried to limit it so as not to scare him, looking back I’m not sure that it worked! Anyway to cut a long story short, that day i was invited to lunch and within 2 weeks I was working at a very famous catholic retreat centre…Jesus had saved me again at the last minute!

Due to misunderstandings which i will tell you about another day, I was obliged to leave this centre after about 6 weeks and once again arrived in another french city, Lyon with about 50euro. Within 2 weeks Jesus found me an apartment (for free!!) and a part-time job! I stayed here for about 2 months!

Every day I went to mass, in fact twice most days, the Lord put so many things and people on my heart to pray for….and yet I was accused of ‘doing nothing’. But Jesus gave me the force to continue, to be a true disciple…

we search for God in books, we find Him in prayer

we search for God in books, we find Him in prayer

In a strange turn of events I was guided back to the south of France, Toulon, where it had all begun. I met with a priest, the superiour of a religious community and after imploring him at the point of tears to help he decided to let me stay for a while! He told me that I would have to get a job and that there was no way i could enter the seminary! Jesus told me otherwise….to cut a long story short, Jesus won!!!

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However due to a lack of prayer life the Lord called me out of the seminary, I believe that he simply wanted me to see what i was like (so that i’d never think of going back!!) and so I packed my bags and again with nothing headed off! Jesus was there all the time telling me to trust, the world was there telling me that i was mad!

Jesus led me to some priests, then to another and then BOOM to India! I had 2 weeks to prepare for India! The Lord told me not to worry about vaccinations or the like, he’d protect me and that would be fine! So 2 weeks later i arrived in Chennai with 30 Euro! True to his word I was never sick in India and ate and drank all sorts of foods!!

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After 4 months of teaching english to Indian seminarians while working with orphan children in mother Theresa’s community, the Lord once again called me on! He told me to leave and to take a 12 hour bus journey accross India to a reatreat centre, from where he promised to send me to my next destination! To be honest I was more worried about telling the monks where i was staying than i was about going!! Jesus gave me a great peace during that trip, despite having almost no money and having no idea where I would be the week after!

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I arrived to my destination feeling intimidated and worried. There was a lot to bear and I had many of “job’s advisors” to fend off! Fortunatley my uncle with whom I have always had regular contact by phone was there for me! As providence would have it, the opportunity opened up to speak to the superiour of the retreat centre! I shared a bit of my journey with him and he spoke to me of coming to Australia! To be honest, Oz was the last place on earth that i would have wanted to go…which is why i knew that it must have been God’s will! Two months later I arrived in Australia with my 12 kilos of baggage (my body weight was not much more at that stage!!).

The Lord surrounded me with angels and gave me an angelic peace during this trip! I initially arrived in Canberra where i spent 6 months with a religious community (Missionaries of God’s Love). As time progressed the Lord made it very clear to me that I was to move on, I felt sorry for the priests who couldn’t seem to get their heads around my lifestyle while I remain grateful for all I have received.

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More and more the Lord was calling me to prayer, especially to intercession and to the area of inner healing! An opportunity opened up to do a retreat in Melbourne and as I was preparing to go the Lord told me that I wouldn’t be coming back! I think I almost gave the poor priest a heart attack when I told him….that type of discernement didn’t appear in the books in the seminary…though it’s worth reading the acts of the apostles!!!

Miraculously the Lord provided a lift to Melboure, the money for the retreat and a small amount of pocket money in the space of 24 hours! Over the next few days i was to meet a group called Living Waters (where I am now) and was to be blown away by their ministry and their faith. Initally I had reserves as the group was not catholic, but the Lord has since opened my eyes big time!

And so another miralce ensued and after prayer i was invited up to Sydney by Ron Brookman who has since astounded me by his faith and generosity! I arrived in Sydney with nothing, not even a bank account but the Lord called me to trusting him! Two days laters a mysterious donation came, I was given a mobile phone, clothes…..

Again, what was i doing? Prayer…’nothing’ in the eyes of so many and yet in the Lords eyes there is nothing as important!

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I continue to live like this, anonymous envelopes with donations arrive when God chooses, the Gospel is a way of life, the spiritual laws are just as sound and reliable as the physical laws….i have never gone short in 5 years, I have never missed a meal (in fact quite the opposite), I have travelled more and have had had heaps more fun!

This is only a very short summary of some of what the Lord has taught me, however I encourage anybody reading this to dare to step out in faith! Dare to be different, dare to be a fool for Jesus..trust me it’s enormous fun!! I also ask you to pray for me, while I have shared with you the glamorous side, there have also been many very difficult moments where i’ve felt like giving it all up, Lord Jesus, for as long as you give me grace I’ll continue.

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