It’s my last day in Ennis and I have been extremely touched here by the friendships and donations to help fund our mission and care for Toni.
We receive no income from church or state so every generous heart means so much to us. Thank you!
When I was in Medjugorje I met an elderly irish man. He came up to me after mass. My initial reaction was fear as many people who befriended us were heavily criticised! You could say that we were the lepors!
I shared my story to this man anyway and astoundingly he replied
“I have the same problem”
And went onto tell me his 50 years of hell with the shame, depression and lonliness of dealing with same sex attraction and homosexual desires!
Jesus put him there to support me that morning as abuse was coming from all angels!
But what got me thinking is the word ‘problem’!
For years too I’ve been fooled into believing the same lie, that I am a problem and that like all problems it needs to be put straight (pun intended)!
It’s taken years of pain to get past the narrow-minded views of so many in the church and to see myself NOT as a problem but as a child of God!
God made me with an atttaction to men, it’s how I am. Afterwards whether that becomes sexual is where church teaching comes in.
But the catechism teaches very clearly that people with homosexual desires
“must be accepted with respect, compassion, and sensitivity. Every sign of unjust discrimination in their regard should be avoided.”
And sadly this is not the case.
Even in Medjugorje where I love so much I was forced to write to the bishop regarding the abuse and discrimination we were victims of from some of the local community!
Instead of being helped we were further discriminated against and said to be “enemies of the church” and “very dangerous”.
Sadly the bishop never replied to us nor did anybody ever apologise for their behaviour!
The catechism continues to say that
“The number of men and women who have deep-seated homosexual tendencies is not negligible.”
And so we can’t help but ask ourselves if the Church teaches this then why is help, love, support and forgiveness so negligible from the church?
Is it because many priests and bishops too are struggling themselves with homosexuality and are afraid of losing their positions of power or is it that prayer and true love for neighbour has all but been extinguished by laborious study and incessant pastoral activism?
Today I call people in our church to rise up. I wouldn’t wish the pain I’ve been through to anybody and I look forward to opportunities of sharing my story to the secular media to highlight the love and mercy of Jesus in the midst of the lukewarm hypocrisy of our broken catholic church!
Pray for me and for all those victims of discrimination and abuse due to their sexuality and for those who have been painfully marginalised by the church.
Bless you all
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