As you know yesterday my story (or at least some of it)) was published in a gay magazine!
The reactions I got were mixed! Some were overwhelming positive while others were not so positive!
On the positive were those who know me and know what I’m doing now for a lot of years! On the negative were those who don’t really know me and felt that I wasn’t explicit enough in talking about sexual purity etc.
I could understand all points of view and yet what left me a bit sad was the lack of compassion from those who did complain!
As I prayed about it I felt Jesus tell me to browse through the magazine. I admit to being the world’s worst reader and if something doesn’t captivate me in 3 sentences I’m very unlikely to continue!
And so I browsed for no more than 15 minutes!
It seemed to me that there were 2 sides to the magazine! One was the glam! Wedding venues, magnificent hotels, beauty products….and the other was the pain.
There were a number of articles on mental health talking about looking after oneself, taking time out etc. There was also a good article for those HIV positive and how they suffer from isolation.
In many ways it was no different to a straight magazine with life’s ups and downs!
Afterwards I asked myself the same question that I’ve asked myself for years! Do they know the power of prayer and where could they learn without being judged!
I thought of the LGBT Westminster group which meets on every second Sunday and that at least they’d be made welcome there!
I thought of many other churches and places and I knew that it would be difficult to say the least!
I was reminded by a french priest last night of the parable of the prodigal son and the older sons reaction!
Why is the Father rushing to His son who spent all his money on women?
He deserves punishment and not mercy!!
We can apply this to our gay friends too!!
‘Why should God show mercy to them, look at me living by the rules of the church and look at them with their money and sex!’
‘God shouldn’t show them mercy until they obey all the rules like me!’
Yet God is God and His love and mercy become the catalyst for conversion!
Obviously the older son is to be pitied too! He has spent years being a good boy and obeying the rules and yet his bitterness shows that his relationship with the father is very flawed!
He fails to see His own need for God’s mercy as his self-righteousness blocks him and he somehow sees himself as better than his younger brother.
This of course is the slippery slope to one of the most deadly sins of all. Pride!
And in my opinion the sin of pride is far worse than sins of impurity etc.
Many people spend a lifetime overcoming addictions and they relapse 1000 times and yet God never a abandons them nor does He judge them and so we must do the same!
Let us be like saint Francis
And let us be known for our love, mercy, truth, prayer, compassion, understanding, hope and joy!
May God purify us of all jealousy, anger and pride so that we may be free!
Have a great day!