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Monthly Archives: Mar 2021

The language of the cross

31 Wed Mar 2021

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Good morning from London’s Hyde Park where I’ve started to run again. Yesterday we had a sunny day of 22c and the park was thronged. With the strong smell of weed pretty much everywhere it could just as well have been renamed as ‘High’ park!



Anyway all that aside this week is Holy week and so the week of the cross.

The language of the cross is a mysterious language of life and death. We speak of suffering and sacrifice and surrender and in the same breath we speak of life, joy, happiness and freedom!

It can sound like a terrible contradiction and confuse us to the core of what we believe that love is.

Often we associate love with being nice and kind a little bit like a little girls tea party and not the suffering sacrificial love of the cross.


And sadly we often have truth without love or love without truth.

It is a very difficult balance to find truth and love and I think parents must know this more than anyone as they love their kids and at the same time they want to protect them from things like drugs etc.

And when kids don’t listen? Contact Margaret Moloney (my mum) for that answer!!!!! Often they learn the hard way later!!


And so this week as we follow Jesus and as we allow Him to work on our hearts we will come face to face with our pride, our impatience, our stubbornness,our anger, our hatred, our   indifference, our unbelief and we will see more and more our own need for healing and transformation.

Yet just as on the day of the crucifixion, some had no idea who Jesus was nor what was happening and so too with us.

As we pray and go to confession and mass and surrender our lives even more to Jesus, some will simply laugh at us and think that we are crazy for not just enjoying the sunshine.

Jesus experienced all this too from His own followers and from the scribes and the pharisees. They didn’t understand His life or His suffering and not only did some of them not value it, they despised Him and hated Him and thought that He was a monster inspired by Satan.


This week we too will experience this as some of us will get mocked and ridiculed by ‘friends’, family, housemates, the media and we must do as Jesus did….

We must not engage with these people too much only look to the cross, look to the heavenly father, offer our prayers and tears for these people and shout as Jesus shouted;

‘Father forgive them, they know not what they do’

Trusting that God sees our prayers, hears our hearts and may use our tears to bless these people with the supernatural grace of conversion of heart just like the centurion who pierced the heart of Jesus.


So I do not wish you all a holy week without suffering but rather I wish you a Holy week with Jesus and with His grace, mercy and understanding so that like Him we may be full of joy even if we too are being crucified in different ways for our faith!

Keep me in your prayers and if you find this blog helpful please do consider helping me a little financially so that I may continue to spread the love and language of the cross to more and more people.

Bless,

Michael

Celebrate a gay celibate priest

29 Mon Mar 2021

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Good morning to you all and I wish u in advance a very holy Holy Week.

Like everything, the more we put in the more we get out and this is why Jesus calls us to trusting Him entirely and surrendering all of our lives to Him so that we can indeed be Holy! Without this surrender our outward holiness is nothing more than a display just like putting an expensive suit on a beggar for a day.


One man who has surrender more than most is this very brave American priest who is openly gay and celibate.

His interview is very powerful and I really encourage you to watch it regardless of whether you are gay or straight yourself. Courage is contagious!

He came out as gay at 51 after years of struggling and he was overwhelmed by the positive reaction of his congregation. Shockingly he estimates that there are only about 10 openly gay priests out there while estimates say that up to 80% of priests may in fact be gay!



So why come out as a gay priest if the church closet is so large and spacious?

This man tells us why!

To break the silence and hypocrisy in the church and to be a light of hope to others and thus break the vicious circle of closeted gay priests living double lives.

Fr James Martin, the most outspoken advocate for gay priests says that ‘if all the gay priests came out then the church would be forced to deal with the issue of homosexuality’.

And I’d go further and say if the gay priests came out then they’d be freed of the fear and shame that has held them captive and that their new found freedom, honesty and joy would be an inspirational witness to the power of Jesus, the love of God and the power of authenticity.

As it is closeted priests preach one thing with their words and yet another with their actions. The theory says be who you are because God loves you while the actions scream ‘hide who you are”.



This scourge of secrecy is like a slow moving cancer in our church and it spreads from one issue to the other.

It’s not just about the gay closet, it’s about 1000 other closets in the church where people feel they have to hide. There is a divorse closet, a contraception closet, a transgender closet, a poverty closet, a spiritual closet….




Yet Jesus calls us to coming as we are, to being open and vulnerable and honest and to growing in holiness and wholeness step by step.

And so today at the beginning of Holy week I pray for priests and especially gay priests. I pray that they will have the courage to come out of the closet of shame and secrecy and to integrate fully their priesthood with their person so that they may walking witnesses of the love and truth of Jesus and the joy of being His disciples.

May the Holy Spirit give them the courage that they need to break the cycle for future generations of priests for the good of the church, the gay community and the whole world.

Thanks for reading and here is the link to the video:

https://www.facebook.com/CBSSundayMorning/videos/826253754655116/


Michael

The Jesus Vaccine!

28 Sun Mar 2021

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Happy palm Sunday to you all. Rayne and I went to a beautiful mass at the Carmelites in Kensington. Apparently princess Diana used to visit this very same church shortly before her death.



Anyway a year on from the coronavirus saga and still going, I got thinking about the vaccine.

The other day in Tyburn convent I picked up a leaflet on the vaccination and how it works. The usual story of introducing some of the virus into the system which in turn causes the immune system to fight it……at least in theory!

Then my thought process switched to another type of vaccine against another type of disease: the Jesus vaccine against sin.



The difference of course with Jesus vaccination against sin is that instead of introducing a small dose of something potentially harmful into the system, Jesus introduces Himself into our system.

As we receive Jesus (with faith) our spiritual immune system sky rockets. Just like hot water in an icy windshield Jesus attacks our coldness, our hardness, our unforgiveness and He also attacks the demons who tirelessly try to bring us down.



And since the spiritual is so related to the physical, when we receive Jesus with faith it greatly benefits our physical health too.

And so at times it saddens me that a year on there is often more hope placed in some stupid vaccination than in Jesus.

I hear people talking of how great it will be when things get back to normal and how the world will be saved by a vaccination and to be honest it sickens me!!

Are our memories so short that we think that the world pre covid was so perfect?! Surely not! And do we really believe that if Covid was gone that we’d all be happy?! Surely not.



Jesus didn’t die on the cross anr leave behind a vaccination for his disciples to administer! He died and left us with His body and blood and with priests and bishops to give it to us!

And so I’ll finish by saying that regardless of whether you get the vacation or not, cast your eyes towards Jesus and remind yourself that there is a far greater disease out there called sin and that it already has a 2000 year tried and tested vaccine called Jesus!!!

May we prepare our lives and souls according for the celebration of Easter next Sunday.

Bless you all, thanks for reading and keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

Michael

How to get away with abuse

27 Sat Mar 2021

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Good afternoon from London!

Yesterday I visited a very famous man with connections to the Royal family who recently celebrated a significant birthday. Happy Birthday (you know who you area).


Lol

All jokes aside, today’s blog is inspired by a tv drama that I’ve been watching called “how to get away with murder”.

Basically the title explains it all as it’s about a barrister who lectures and trains her students and teaches them how to get their clients away with murder!!

Her job is to defend her client, not to defend the truth and so whether or not her client is actually guilty is irrelevant.

As she lectures she trains her students on how go get these people off the hook. Here are some of the strategies:

1. Discredit the witnesses. Dig up their past by throwing doubt on their character or on their mental health so that their story won’t be trusted

2. Create new suspects as a diversion to muddy the waters and to make the dury doubt.

3. Tamper with the evidence and block it from appearing in court.

4. Intimidate the witnesses and try to force a false confession out of them.

5. Play with the emotions of the dury.




As I reflect on it today in light of the last few weeks and my involvement in the healing and LGBT ministry I sadly see the parallels between the legal system and the church!

“How to get away with murder” could be called “How to get away with abuse” and the murderers could be replaced by certain members of the clergy.

I can only imagine how hurtful it must be for good priests when their colleagues have been found guilty of abuse and cover ups and when the institutional church has played along. They must feel betrayed to the core and my heart and prayers go out to them.

Yet how even more devastating must it be for the victims of abuse and by abuse I’m not just talking about sexual abuse, I’m talking about sexual abuse, spiritual abuse, abuse of power, abuse of position…..



Sadly this subject hits too close to home when my own mother had a terrible breakdown as a result of abuse that she experienced from a priest. How convenient that as a psychiatric patient she doubted herself so much and felt such fear and trauma that she never had the strength to speak out.

Despite being a fervent catholic I never saw her visited by any member of the clergy when she broke down. Like Jesus as He hung on the cross, the apostles ran away and let Him take the pain.

She was suddenly silenced and shunned and the suffering she endured was out of this world.

Yet little did I know that Jesus would allow me to walk in her footsteps and no sooner was I converted than the abuse started for me.


If I spoke of demons they said I was schizophrenic. If I advocated for gay people they said I hadn’t forgiven. If I said I was called to live on providence they said I was psychotic….

Years and years and years of abuse beyond your wildest dreams and going back to the tv drama, the same techniques were used!

1. Discredit the witness…ie: me!! He’s mad, he’s crazy, he’s just like his mother, he’s lying.

2. Create new suspects. It’s mental illness, it’s his imagination….it never happened!!

3. Tamper with the evidence. There is no proof, you can’t prove it, your word against theirs.

4. Intimidation. We’ll kick you out of you continue to talk or worse we’ll lie and beat you up and give you a false criminal record like what happened in Medjugorje.

5. Play with emotions. “We were only trying to help him and this is how he repays us”. How many times have I heard this one….

You get the picture, it goes on and on and they do everything to make you crack as each time you have to relive the abuse and trauma in your mind over and over and they know it. They want you to give up, they want you the throw in the towel because if you do…..


And so in light of all this if there is one thing that has cheered me up over the last few days it’s the many priests who have spoken out publicly for the rights of LGBT people in the church and for an end to unjust spiritual abuse.

And yes, just like an American tv drama, the battle in the church is vicious and nasty and often one feels that there is precious little time for the truth or for the victims only self protection and preservation of reputations.

However thanks be to God that the people are no longer afraid and that more and more people, laity and priests are coming out of the woodwork and are unashamedly and publicly naming and shaming the abuses that they have both experienced and witnessed.


And so today as I pray and as I continue my ministry with often such little support or encouragement, I place all my trust in the justice of God and I take consolation in His majestic hand of mercy that raises up the lowly, heals the broken hearted and throws the high and might off their thrones!

So perhaps you can join with me and pray that beautiful prayer that Our Lady prayed, the magnifcat for all the victims of abuse in our church today and for the purging of all evil and cover ups among the clergy.


Thanks for reading

Michael

Ps. Séamus will be having his prayer meeting this evening at 7pm and he will be interviewing Paul Teece, priest and psychotherapist with amazing insights into LGBT ministry and the various associated abuses in today’s church. Join through Séamus’ Facebook page…

The healing ministry

26 Fri Mar 2021

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Good afternoon to you all!

Yesterday was the feast of the annunciation and I took a day off blogging. I’m sure you were all devastated!!!


Instead I had a nice prayerful and reflective day and managed to get in a bit of sport. I think I mentioned ages ago that I’d begun training to do the splits and while I’m not there yet, I’m getting there and it’s good fun too!


Practice makes perfect!

Anyway as I was reflecting on the last few days it really hit me how the healing ministry is needed NOW more than ever.

Recently I was at a prayer meeting and some of the people were almost unrecognisable. I guess it’s due to a year now of the lockdown and the stress etc. that goes with it.

You see a lot of people have what I’d call a ‘natural faith’. They believe that God is good, that He loves them and that we should be nice to others. It’s a bit like the faith of the old testament!

The problem with this ‘natural faith’ is that it’s not ‘supernatural’ and so there is nothing really exciting or inspiring about it.

It excludes a close and personal relationship with Jesus, it excludes the healing ministry and miracles and it excludes any real spiritual joy or enthusiasm! To be honest it’s a sort of a dead or a faithless faith and it’s a bit like having a TV and not having the electricity to turn it on!!


The question to be asked is this: where is Jesus?!



He’s back!! Lol

And so I am convinced today more than ever that we need more and more healing ministry to bring the hope and the joy of Jesus to the people of faith who somehow have fallen into fear, anxiety and negativity.

Our Lady knows all about miracles because she had a lifetime of them between her own very conception to the supernatural conception of Jesus not to mention all that she witnesses throughout Jesus’ life and after His resurrection.

She desires to bring us from ‘natural faith’ into supernatural faith by bringing us into the supernatural life of God through the Holy Spirit.

Now more than ever we need the Spirits supernatural gifts and charisms. We need healings, conversions, miracles, praise, deliverance, adoration, intercession……

We need it all!.

And so today I invite you to pray the ‘miracle prayer’ with me for yourself and your own needs but also for our churches. Let us pray for a supernatural outpouring of the Holy Spirit and pray for priests and healers to be raised up by Jesus to bring the light and love of God to the wounded and hurting people at this time!


In the meantime, I have a big mac to finish!! Have a great day.😉


Michael

The truth dispels error..

24 Wed Mar 2021

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Good morning from London’s Hyde Park where it’s a bit cloudy and I’m waiting for the sun to dispel the darkness.


This morning I got up early once again and went to morning mass at Tyburn Convent. I got there at about 7.10 and so was on time for the office of prayer before the 7.30 mass.

A young Irish-South African priest is now the chaplain at Tyburn convent and I must say that he celebrates mass very prayerfully with beautiful homilies and so this morning I was more than happy when I got to talk to him!

As God’s great sense of humour would have it, he too lived in France in the same place as I did and we know people in common!! Thank you Jesus!

What struck me in his sermon was one line:

‘Truth dispels error”

And just like the sun dispels the clouds, Jesus, God’s ‘son’ dispels the clouds of error and darkness in today’s world and church.



However some days the sun doesn’t come out and the day remains cloudy and gloomy until night. Is it the same with God? Are there some days that He doesn’t come out and that darkness reigns?!

Sadly the answer is yes because God doesn’t do everything Himself, He relies on us to cooperate with Him.


Preaching and teaching the truth and correcting error will get us nailed to the cross. This morning I took this picture at Tyburn and wasn’t aware that as I looked at Jesus, my reflection was on the image! It spoke volumes to me.

As we follow Jesus, we become like Jesus and we too get rejected and crucified for it. It’d be far easier to keep our mouths shut and our ‘powder dry’ as the saying goes!

Yet this type of self-preservation is not the gospel and the lack of clear teaching becomes a breeding ground for every sort of error and confusion.

Nowadays many hate the truth and they believe that it’s just a matter of opinion and so when faced with our confidence and faith they often revolt!

“You’re stubborn” my older brother once said to me as he tried to justify his own idiotic view on the spiritual realm. I’m not sure what I replied at the time but if I had to reply now I’d simply say:

‘I’m not stubborn, I’m confident”.


Yes, Jesus calls us to place all our trust in Him and to be boldly confident in His power, His presence and His truth.

We must challenge others who claim that God is some sort of ‘energy’ or that Jesus is just one of many ways…..

They may see us as stubborn or intolerant but so be it. That’s their problem and maybe our confidence will wake them up out of their ignorance.

Similarly with the current LGBT issue. It is not good enough to stay silent and to let the LGBT community be bullied and hurt once again by the church in the name of ‘truth’.

Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and we must always preach Jesus, preach the truth and preach His mercy.

Some will fall away because Jesus calls us to holiness and for some this sounds too much like hard work. Yet we must tell them and if they refuse it will be on their consciences and not ours.


And so as I sit here and as the sun is finally coming out my prayer today is for priests and preachers that they too will come out!

To come out and preach boldly and confidently of the crucified and risen Jesus, to come out and to fearlessly and publically rebuke error and yes …in some cases to ‘come out’ and show our church and world that one can be gay and be an excellent and holy celibate priest or preacher too!

So let the sun come out today and let the son of man come out today too and may we walk and talk fearlessly and confidently in the way, the truth and the life, Jesus.

Michael

Hardness of heart

23 Tue Mar 2021

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Good afternoon,

This morning I picked up the 33 day consecration to Mary and read the next chapter. It began something like this:

‘What if you look at a crucifix and feel such little love and are barely moved at all …’

Or worse still if you look at a cross and feel absolutely nothing and maybe even hatred and disgust…

It goes onto explain that if that be the case then you are coming face to face with the hardness of your heart.

Now let’s be careful, this isn’t in an accusing way. Between life hurts and the effects of original sin we are all suffering from this disease to a point.

So what to do?

Well you see to our modern society a hard heart seems like quite a good thing. Many very successful business people ‘harden up’ and their ruthless attitude generates lots of worldly success just like their father, the devil!

How many times are children told to ‘harden up’ because having a soft sensitive heart is seen as a major weakness.

And yet Jesus is calling us to have sensitive hearts that are sensitive to the suffering of the world and of Jesus.

It takes enormous strength to have a soft heart and to actually live one’s sensitivity. To feel the pain rather than to run away, to cry those tears rather than cover over it, to reach out in love to hurting communities rather than hide away in indifference, to speak up for justice rather than ignore it….

Yes, the strength of the Holy Spirit comes to us through our soft and Jesus’ like hearts and not through ‘business like hearts’ of stone.

Of course it is a great challenge to keep our hearts open even when we get hurt, ignored, ridiculed, misunderstood and abused and the only way we can do this is through prayer.

Prayer is where we find the strength to overcome the pain, prayer is where suffering becomes sweet, where we become selfless rather than selfish and Jesus offers us His mother Mary to help us.

He desires us to unite our hearts to hers and that she in turn will heal them, strengthen them and transform them into healthy hearts of supernatural love.

This process doesn’t happen passively but rather it occurs actively as Our Lady teaches us how to pray, how to use the sacraments, how to forgive ….

It requires commitment and daily dedication and to ignore this calling and not to continuously work on your heart is a very gross and serious omission. The christian journey is not easy, Our Lady’s job is not easy, sanctification is not easy and yet, it is what it is!

And so today in the midst of all the indifference and hardness of heart, let us be lights of hope and let us not fall into the trap of indifference.

May the Holy Spirit give us the strength in our hearts to deal with the pains of this world and may we never be tempted to close and harden our hearts.

May we be Our Lady’s apostles of love and prayer and may we teach others to pray and remind them of the very great responsibility it is to be a catholic.

Have a prayerful day and may we bring love, joy, hope and consolation to Jesus and Mary today and our fellow brothers and sisters.

Michael

Hope in the darkness

22 Mon Mar 2021

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Good afternoon world!

Well the last few days I’ve been pretty busy writing and dealing with LGBT ministry in and around the Vatican’s letter…..At a certain point the lot of it gets exhausting, repetitive and one needs a break and some new hope!


I thank God for the hall in our church where I do some sport every morning, it’s just one of the things that helps to keep me reasonably sane!!

So anyway a few days ago I stumbled on this article on Facebook. It’s in French but in summary it’s about a new religious community for girls with down syndrome.


https://www.vaticannews.va/fr/eglise/news/2019-07/histoires-partagees-soeurs-trisomiques-disciples-agneau.html

The story is quite amazing. A young girl with a vocation to religious life met another young girl who also had a vocation except that she had down syndrome and the rest as they say is history.

It was a difficult journey because the laws of the church (canon law) didn’t allow mentally handicapped people to enter religious life….

Just like the situation nowadays with LGBT community, at times the church laws make some good people outlaws!!

Rather than despair and give up, the girls found a place to stay and an understanding bishop and shared a prayer life in a flat. From there it grew and with the help of the bishop who pleaded their case to the Vatican and guess what…eventually it worked and they got full recognition as a contemplative religious order.

Hallelujah!!! Jesus can get around the boys in Rome! 🤣🤣



All of this once again got me thinking of my own life and journey and also of a story one of my old spiritual directors told me about a transgender person who had a vocation but couldn’t get accepted anywhere…

Perhaps it was prophetic as only 2 years later Jesus would introduce me to a young transgender person for whom I had to fight tooth and nail for in bringing him into the church and stand beside Him like a lion waiting to devour  anybody who gave him trouble!!


My fiery temper was often put to a good use let me tell you!!

However all joking aside, as I see this community of consecrated sisters I am once again filled with hope and with certainty that one day there will be a community of consecrated LGBT people, committed to Jesus, committed to prayer, committed to evangelisation and recognized by the Church.

So let’s keep our faith and our hope because as saint Paul puts it, faith is the belief in things not yet seen and prayer is the wonderful fertiliser that brings into being what is not!!

God bless, thanks for reading and pray for us that we may do something even more wonderful for the church and the gay community and that we may meet the right people including priests and bishops to make it happen!!

All for Jesus,

Michael

I thirst

21 Sun Mar 2021

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Hello again from London,

Last night Rayne and I had a very pleasant evening as we visited our friend and priest, Paul.

Since coming to London Paul has been an amazing source of support and wisdom and even more so since I met Rayne. A little medical problem stopped him from coming to Notting Hill yesterday so we decided to go to him instead.

As you know this week the Vatican wrote a not so friendly letter concerning the LGBT community and it has caused a lot of hurt and quite a stir. Today as I was reflecting on it all I was reminded of the words that Jesus spoke to mother Teresa at the start of her calling…..”I thirst”.

As Rayne and I continue the 33 day consecration to Our Lady, we are now on the section with mother Teresa and in light of the hurting LGBT community I think that it’s most relevant.

As I sit here in St. Mary of the Angel’s chapel in front of Jesus and ask Him how He feels I keep hearing these same words in my soul. I THIRST.

Jesus thirsts for souls. It doesn’t matter whether they are black or white or gay or straight or trans or whatever. A soul is a soul.

He has a special thirst for the weak, the lost, the misunderstood and the rejected and there are lots of that kind to be found in the LGBT community.

Can we imagine for a second the joy it would bring Jesus to bring these souls to His heart? To bring these souls to the sacraments, to adoration, to Our Lady, to mass, to prayer, to community, to Medjugorje, to Lourdes….

Maybe you can’t but I certainly can because I’m one of them and my experience of Jesus’ thirst for me has given me a special insight into His thirst for every gay person.

And so as I reflect on this last week and the hurt caused to the gay community by the hardness of the Vatican, I hear Jesus cry even louder:

“I thirst, bring them to me, not to the Vatican”

Of course we all know that the Vatican has no shortage of gays at every level but that’s beside the point. The point is that Jesus does not work at the Vatican and is in need of no permission from Rome to love LGBT people and to pour out His Graces on them.

The Vatican is like a slow moving ship that might catch up with Jesus in 100 years time but Jesus isn’t bothered about that! He’s had 2000 years experience with them and He’s still the boss!!

And so this evening as Séamus interviews me again for His prayer meeting I think that’s my message: “to hell with what the Vatican thinks because Jesus loves you and HE THIRSTS'”

Have a great evening, keep our mission in your prayers and every time you meet a discouraged person around this issue point them to Jesus!

Michael

Unholy Spirit

20 Sat Mar 2021

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What a name and yet this is the name that was given to a tv documentary in Australia in 2013 on which I appeared regarding gay conversion therapy.

Before I give you the link let me qualify it a bit! I worked in a group called “Living Waters” which was a Christian inner-healing ministry with a particular focus on homosexuality or same sex attraction.

The theology behind it was that homosexuality or same sex attraction was a spiritual wound due to things like not getting enough love from your dad or being smothered by your mum and so by inner-healing people could be healed.


Yea, even the cat is doubtful about that!

The interview starts by describing me as an Irish catholic who used to have a girlfriend and was observing the church’s teaching on sex before marriage. Honestly, nothing could be forget from the truth. I had a french girlfriend, we had lots of sex and we never gave the church’s teaching a second thought!!

It then goes on to say that I wanted to be healed of my homosexuality which again isn’t true. I got involved with this group to grow in prayer, to learn more about healing, to help others and to better discern what God wanted of me. I had no interest in becoming straight and wasn’t looking for a boyfriend either.

So sadly the interview is typically of a lot of things on the media with half truths and twisted stories to attract attention.


The pastor at Living Waters was Ron Brookman, a good man who did everything he could to help people in the way he thought best.

He himself came from a gay and confused past until eventually having an experience of God and getting married to a woman and his belief (and that of most Pentecostal Christians) was that this was God’s plan for every gay man. Either that or single I mean!

So things for me were going pretty well at Living Waters at the start. They were very prayerful,very open to the holy spirit and very accepting of gay people like me.

However there was a problem in that they were not at all open to gay people who might be in a relationship and any such relationships were from the devil.

At the time I probably agreed!!


But as I was always someone to question things and was praying to God for full freedom and happiness, I was open to surprises and a surprise did come along in the form of a guy called Alex.

We shared a very intimate and chaste love but when pastor Brookman and others were told, they hit the roof!

I was being tricked by the devil and was too arrogant and prideful to see it….

My health spiralled downwards over the next 6 weeks with me finishing up on the psychiatric hospital in Sydney and eventually leaving Australia to return to Ireland where I received more psychiatric care.

I’ve told this story before but it was Our Lady who saved the day through yet another miracle through an old statue in my grandfather’s house.

From that point on I realised and understood that my same sex attraction was a good thing and that loving another man was something beautiful.


But the years of being single had taught me how to really love someone rather than just sex and that God wasn’t seeking to break same sex relationships but rather to make them and to make them holy!

And so I look back on the healing ministry with mixed feelings! It didn’t convert me from being gay to being straight but it did convert lust to love and taught me much about inner-healing and prayer.

So needless to say I no longer agree with ‘gay conversion therapy’ that seeks to turn gays straight and yet I do believe that every gay man does need conversion!

Not conversion of sexuality but conversion of heart to know that He is loved by God and that there is both a Holy and unholy way to live out his sexuality just like for straight guys!

So we must be careful not to throw God out with the dodgy theology and yet at the same time we must challenge these types of ministries so that they can convert into ministries which help gay men reach the fullness of holiness and happiness in the church and in society; fully gay, fully Christian, fully alive!

Here is the interview (I cringed watching some of it!!)

https://youtu.be/srr7xV9LOv4

Michael

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