Over the years I’ve read so many books on adoration…most of which I’ve thrown away because they sound so complicated!!

Right or wrong….this is what I’ve been led to do at adoration!!

I do not go to adoration to adore Jesus, He’s God, He already is fully himself and has no need of my love at all!

No, poor miserable wretch that I am, I go to adoration to let Jesus love on me..yes…as wretched and horrible as I am, Jesus adores me at adoration …and you!!

So I sit there and let him love me and it is so liberating. He might not always like what I do, but He loves  me just as I am…warts and all.

Sometimes memories of past sins come up…though already confessed the memories are not necessarily healed…I tell Jesus abour them and just like the sun melts ice, God’s love melts the pain, the shame, the guilt….demons hate it…’Satan, you are the weakest link, goodbye!!
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Sometimes I sit there and nothing happens, but just like getting a Sun tan, the divine rays are shining on me all the same!

Of course when I’m touched by the Lord I love Him back, but that is the thing, it is He who makes the first move!! I liken it to a little boy who has no money to buy his Dad a present and then the Dad gives his son money. The son then runs off to buy his Dad a present!! Similarly, God pours love on us….whether we love Him back with it or not is up to us!!

So my suggestion, next time you go to adoration, don’t try to love Jesus, rather let Him love YOU!

P.S. it’s more challenging than it sounds

“Is Jesus really present in the Eucharist”…. I wondered just after my conversion!

After He appeared to me in a vision I was certain that He existed but was He really present in the Eucharist?

Quite honestly I didnt know, I had serious doubts and I told Jesus in prayer ..i always tell Jesus what I think and feel even if it may be heresy!!

So one day in the South of France I had a particularily difficult day. It was Wednesday and ‘la Messe’ (Mass) was at 7pm.

My prayer that day was ‘Lord, I’m desperate, I’m in a foreign country, I’ve no friends, they think I’m mad….Either I go to Mass this evening.or the psych ward…I’ll go to Mass…I know I’m not mad…help’.

The Church was a minute walk from my house. Feeling helpless I struggled accross the road.

As i’d only recently arrived in France, I struggled to understand all the Mass readings and sermon, those of you who have had to learn a foreign language will understand this frustrating trial.

Communion time arrived. I was feeling awful…this was my last chance! I received communion and (not recommending this) allowed the host to stick to the top of my mouth and after mass rushed back to my tiny studio accross the road.

Still feeling like death I turned off all the lights, turned off all my phones (Irish and French) and lay on my bed. I said

‘Jesus, I can’t leave this host stuck to my mouth forever…you are my.last hope…here goes’

I then let the host dissolve in my mouth and what happened next changed my life…a warm sensation came over me, warmer and warmer until suddenly I erupted crying, tears from the pit of my soul, pain beyond words, hope beyond pain. It lasted 15 minutes…i thought I might die so intense was the love…then I erupted in a mix of laughter and song.

From that day on I knew that Jesus was really present. Can Jesus heal us today ….yes, piece of cake!!

This morning in prayer I was taken in spirit to what happens as we depart from this world and into the next…..or death as it’s more commonly known!

Our spirits were never meant to be seperated from our bodies, and so this moment of seperation is actually completely unnatural and so very painful. A great spiritual battle occurs at this moment as our spirits try to cling to this life as we know it….but to no avail…getting weaker and weaker until the final surrender happens. During these monents both the Lord and the powers of darkness fight over the soul….where the soul will spend eternity is at stake. Ultimately the soul must make the final decision itself.

This morning I was only showed what happens to those that choose God. Seperated from the body, the person is now ‘in spirit’ and so is able to intuitively understand that which may otherwise take 100 years of learning as we know it here. As the soul travels through a tunnel of light, it is made aware of thousands and thousands of things. In our human time, all this happens in those few minutes after the person’s passing. Some of the things the spiritual soul learns include….

– Greetings from family members already passed on
– An awareness of all the good and bad things completed in their lifetime
– Infused knowledge of the spiritual realm, of its workings, angels, demons, heaven, hell
– Infused knowledge of who has helped them, who has prayed for them and also of who may need prayer on the side of the living

The soul then travels to God himself, pure light, where it is infused with a knowledge of His power, His majesty, His glory. This is simultaneously awesome and terrifying. The soul is then shown  God’s mercy….unfathomable mercy, it then erupts like a volcano in love and praise for God who then welcomes the soul and purifies it before showing it where it is to spend eternity!

Just like here on earth, over the veil we will all be given a home, activities…but unlike down here, everything that we will do we will do it with pure love and joy and we’ll all get on!!

Souls that do not choose God will travel on a different path and that’s all I’ll say about that today!

This is by no means a full account of what happens after death and at times it’s very hard to put words on spiritual experiences which though may only take 60 seconds feel like an entire lifetime!

Enjoy your day

Bless

Michael